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I seem to either do this too much, or not enough. Telling others of myself that is. I don't have too much, I mostly rely on others asking specific questions, I'm an honest person if the interviewer is as equally fair of heart. So.... shoot.

On a more extended note.

I have an odd mindset, I think somewhat... differently to others, I preach individualism. I respect everyone and try to find the good in all. Though that may not seem different, as I said earlier. You see, I'm a twin, and throughout life I have experienced things somewhat "outside the norm" of society, somewhat in the way of a psychic connection with another being, subtle, but there. Try feeling someone elses pain. Literally.

Possibly as such, and because of my general exclusion from the world, I have developed an odd thought pattern, and an extreme desire for equilibrium in everything. I touch my left hand. I MUST TOUCH MY RIGHT.

I'm getting better at dealing with it, but it's there. Also, I think in the way that I always think the opposite of what I'm thinking. If I were to say to some idiot "I hate you", my mind would spring forth the idea that I loved them, thus causing emotional and psychological stress. Which may lead to some commitment issues I have seen dotted throughout my life. Continuing on with this train of thought, I must combat my own thoughts, although they help me see all sides of the story and find goodness within evil. I find that at times I must think with one hundred percent certainty, and from which I have a habit of mentally depicting my own murder, me the culprit and victim, I put it out as this. I have an idea, I might say to my partner, "I love you", immediately within my mind I may think "Maybe we're better off as best friends", I don't like the latter idea, so I pin that idea to a person, me, and I then carry out to murder myself, my choice of weapon has most commonly tended to me a knife, the kill brutal and bloody. Feel free to call me disturbed or a freak, I probably am.

I understand I may have given to much information you might have liked and I have contradicted my first statement, but once I start writing it can be hard to stop.

Feel privileged, I only tell that to those I trust and hold close to me.

Current Residence: Broken Hill
Favourite genre of music: It varies, though generally my taste is sated with darker stuff. IE Suicide rock and the like.
Favourite photographer: None of yet.
Favourite style of art: Here and there.
Operating System: PC
MP3 player of choice: Ipod, sadly.
Favourite cartoon character: Spongebob...I think
Personal Quote: You'll live.